So how can it all be integrated, she asks herself.
I see that I struggle to accept the human emotionality (on one hand - on the other I enjoy being in this body and feeling it all) - when there can be and IS the reality and experience of the big Oneness. And Love.
And actually - like today again - when I'm just in felt perception, moment by moment, it opens the realm of acceptance, which is alreday here. Nothing I do.
After coming back from vision quest I had the felt insight of this, which I put into those words:
of any experience
My own and other's
So it's a perceived back and forth of knowing this and of the interwovenness of the different aspects of being human and it all. Resting more and more in the knowing that it's all just like this. This is it, this is life. Here, now.
And in a perceived timeline, remembering and imagining things that have happened and things that I imagine to happen, I get carried away from the felt perception, which is only happening and to perceived: now.
And she, who has been given this name
is an expression of the whole.
While carrying the codes of the totality of life
and her unique texture.